"Not clear, just blank. No vancies, just emptyness"

Has been yet another weekend that just passed. I would reckon it to be laidback since I hadn't been brunch-ing/drinking/partying and what not. Decide to hv a more toned lifestyle this few months.

Also to cut down on alcohol to prep better for the run in Dec'13.

Sudden thought came to my mind on certain things in life and I just had to put them down to feel better. Been glad for certain grp of friends who has always been around through the years. We don't meetup weekly but we do when we have time, birthdays and such. You know these people will be the ones whom you can always hv things to catch up on whenever there's a meetup. And that you enjoy the company as well. At the same time, there are certain pts in time/life that you somehow make the wrong moves.

Maybe let's jus touch on this today.

2013:

I reckon I started the year with a new beginning. A new 23rd year of entering the workforce, bringing home income and being an adult. I've many things to be dependent on self (financial, responsibility, life, work). And I am learning every single day. At work, there has been diff issues that occurred which has led me to being better in handling work/bosses/people and see things in a different better picture. The way one treats you is a reflection of how you treat others- Very true saying. I used to flare up so much easily towards people (people I dont really knw) and I believe it wasn't feeling good to be in their shoes. Cause I was arrow-ed to be in their situation. It somehow dawned alot on myself and I learnt to be better towards others nowadays. I think it does makes a good change. 

I started to pay attention to more details in work/life. Doing things with greater eye for details, attention and patience. Patience is a virtue which I hv also been not able to inculcate. Somehow with friends/people around you having that virtue does help u inbuilding them into urself.

My challenge that I've set myself is to "be a more eye for detail person, inculcate patience and to hv a better temper".

However, there are times when you made the wrong moves. As such, dating the wrong person. I would say I rather a friendship than having to date someone who isn't in the right level of perspective of a r/s. I think thats impt. If someone else doesnt see things as the way you do then u had better do not attempt to try to date. It will make things turn out likewise. I went through that 2mths back. And hurt was def done to someone so I reckon not to continue further to impact anymore. And of course it has made me see the better light of knowing how the other sees a date before commiting into one. 

There are times you dont know whether it was the right or wrong move. I am someone stubborn by nature. I could stick to a decision and be so firm in it. That makes a strength and flaw as well. And of course, I see friendships as friendships and if anyone ever tries to come by with "different" feelings towards me, I'd at all cost,avoid. Avoidance is a right/wrong thing. Right- not to impact anymore wrong diff feelings for that person to "drag" him or her further in their feelings. Wrong- cause afterall we're all friends and adults. But I still reckon the first. Don't believe too grealty in things like "time will tell". Words are always words. I think its more of a having the right rational thought. We don't spell out exactly everything in words. So if you may get the message then move on from there. It is benefical for self. I always truly believe in having things go their way, if it flows to u someday, it will. You do not need to do anything to make it work.

I am glad I lighten alot on my perspective towards r/s. I don't see them as important or priority now. I choose to have fun now for another good year before I ever will consider a proper r/s. I think I somehow can't put my focus in place for long- meaning to say, I can't face the same thing for long, I am easily bored. Other than food and alcohol. So I think life is still very much perfect now for me at least. I choose how I want to spend my time & days. 

So for now,

Love,

Rach

'Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war, love is a growing up.'

Happy Sunday! Finally the wifi is working well and I am able to update my lil space here!

Let's backtrack to last weekend which was a blast!

Friday started off well as I was on leave, woke up to settle all misc stuffs for the trip, went to the salon and back home to pack all my stuffs before cabbing over to the airport. 

Needed this bangkok getaway so badly since things hadn't been at its best recently, esp at work.

I was so looking fwd even though it was a solo trip. But what makes this more interesting was this is the first time I venture outta my comfort zone to take the big courage to travel alone!
Even tho I was so forgetful that I had to pay $50 for check-in baggage! :/ 

So off I was to the Land of Smiles- Bangkok!

Having my so-called "High Tea" while waiting to check in! Fav green tea frappe with gigantic cookie monster!

Landed in Bangkok after a good 2hrs of flight. Headed straight to get a cab to the hotel. It was quite a mess when we were at Pratunam cause the roads were too small and narrow for the cab to drive in! But thankfully, the cab driver was nice enough to stop the cab and asked for help from one of the street hawkers to direct me to Citin Pratunam. Wouldn't consider staying there again due to the location.

I had a quick dinner, washed up and slept. Wanted to combat enough energy for my long day of JaktuJak!

Waking up to wet roads since the prev night was a rainy one. But I was thankful the sun came out throughout my whole day at JaktuJak!

Weather was perfect, food was cheap, I spent the day shopping at my own pace, having coffee and chilling around whenever I needed a rest from the walking. Life's seems so good. I couldn't ask for a more perfect time alone in Bangkok! and with so many singaporeans ard, I do feel that it's more like a land of Singaporeans! Whats more to say, people are def friendly!

Bangkok is a city that never sleeps. Massive traffic, endless people all year round and filled with so much cheap foods and drinks, what else to ask for? I'd def go back once every year, be it alone or with the friends just to enjoy this layback life. And time passes so slow there, which I am not complaining. I am instead loving every bit of it. I got bck to the hotel earlier to shower and rested before dinner was at Pratunam and light shopping, massage and a beer to end the TGIS!

Will always have at least 1 cuppa Black Canyon when I am in Bangkok, good cheap coffee! I need them in the morning if not I am totally dsyfunctional. That was on Sunday before I started my day of Pratunam and Platinum spamming!

Lunch was a simple crepe filled with Ham and Pork Floss. Nothing very fantastic but I do like crepes and I like mine to be savoury!

Spend the whole Sunday doing all kinda of shopping and packing dinner bck to the room to enjoy. 

Then I was so worn out after a shower and I decided to head for an early rest and to pack my luggage and double check my documents.

Arrived at the airport really early and decided to wander and just chill around. I even had a good nap of 1hr at the benches. HAHAHA. Then went ahead to check in before the quene forms! 

So thankful the luggage wasn't overweight at all!

Decided to have some decent thai food since I hadn't been able to!

So there's the SUPER spicy papaya salad which I had only 1/4 cause it was burning my tongue! And a club sandwich before the flight!

Landed back in Sg around midnight and gotten home ard 1am. Washed up,unpacked and went to bed since I had to be back at work the next day. I was still feeling the tiredness when I woke up for work but thankful the coffee did the trick in keeping me awake and I was glad I came back to work to settle all admin stuffs.

So that was one thing off my list! 

I am glad I did it and I was handling it very well when I was overseas. I was all alone and I knew I couldn't panick nor feel afraid cause I wouldn't be able to know how far I can go. I make sure I was safe and surrounded with people all time and my belongings were always with me. It doesn't feel like I was alone since the crowd in Bangkok never ends. I did felt more relax and off the mind from Sg. 

And I plan to do this yearly. The next destination would be Bali next year for myself to get away to an island and just spend the weekends there chilling. I think everyone deserves a good time alone from time to time to clear the mind from work,life and everything else.

Till the next destination!

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Friday tht had jus passed was a short yet hectic day for all of us as we were shifting office!

Our last lunch was bound at Room Cafe and I had my salad for my eat-clean regime.

SO THANKFUL THAT I AM GONNA BE NEIGHBOURS WITH THIS SIAO CHAR BO again!
But she's just gonna be around for 1 more week :( gonna miss verbal diahorrea to her always during work! But nonetheless, I wish the best for her in her next destination too.

Received a very saddening piece of news on Thursday night. I just thought life is def short and many things could happen within a night. I was lost upon hearing it but I knew that the people who were facing it were even more lost and emotional. The best we could do was to be there for them.

The weekends were here and I didn't felt like spending it out so I spent the day lazing in bed with my tablet to catch up on my shows, went for a workout and then back home for dinner before I opened a bottle of wine at night, feels good drinking the night away at home. I needed that badly due to the busy week ever since I came back frm Bangkok.

Till another better day ahead today!

Its Sunday but tuesday is a PH and so I am looking fwd to a day of sleep,brunch and maybe workout too!

Love,

Rachh