Time flies & in the blink of an eye, we're 3rd week of 2013

Just another 2 weeks to go before CNY dawns in & all th endless feasting begins.

However, I am so glad that after all these while, I am still being VERY disciplined and keeping up to my weekly workout routine;
Jogging twice/thrice a week & full body core muscles workout.
More areas to be work on & I must do it!

I was contemplating whether I shld do a short  post of 2012 & felt that I shld!
It will serve as a good reflection for myself and to be better in 2013! *HWAITING*


Great start of 2012; Our new place was finally ready! The parents & sisters were rather excited about the move. We spent lots of weekends on furniture shopping (me missing out quite a few) and moving stuffs bit by bit during our free time! And as the date seems to be nearing, we were more excited than before! The move was set to be in May. & boy, we had a tedious 3days of house moving though th new place was only a street away from the old's. HAHA. All the unpacking was insane! But I'm glad we did it together as a family! It does feel good to be doing this altogether and helping each other. I guess the house moving had been a great bonding family time for us!



Mid way through the year, I was still in the midst of my uni studies. While having to juggle house-moving & exams during May, it was MADNESS. I was glad to have a shelter over at my then bf's place t crash for mugging & proper sleep since the house was pretty much in a mess to be conducive. Pretty thankful to his family for embracing me & making sure I have my full during dinner time with them, always on the lookout for me, calling me & including me in every of the family's activities. I do felt so loved as though I found new parents & grandparents. And of course, new siblings.



And yup, the then-bf left for 1.5months of summer exchange over in California, Berkeley. Well, it was pretty much of an experience and a real test for us & the relationship. We had changes to our lifestyle & ways of communication as well since the timings differs alot. We made adjustments and got use to it somehow after 3weeks? During the holidays, I wasnt able to land in a short-term job and thus decided it would be of a good break at home. Felt guilty though fo having my mom still "money-pocketing" me :/ Thanks mommykins!



But anyways, the 1month of holidays ended like what seems to be flying past so fast. I was basically prepping to be returning to school for the final semester of school! So glad it was gonna be over in 3mths as it would also mean that im finally done & over with studies! Might miss that a lil still. Being a student, def is still a better choice if I were to choose again.

As well as, I was fighting an emotional battle for 2-3months. It was nonetheless, something I never thought would come across again. Maybe cause you felt that this person would be the one you will spend with or settle down with. Utter disappointment, hurt and tears just filled my 3months. But for sure one thing I did not regret till date would be ending it off with a nice note. & to the lovely parents, grandparents & the 2 naughty ones, it had been a great time meeting them, bonding and always having endless fun together. Im so glad that im well-liked and that we bonded pretty well & close together. 

However, the 3months of emotional battle taught me alot more than and made me grow. I thought I had lost someone that I gave my all but in actual fact all the gains I had made me realize that the loss was just a minor one. Indeed, I lost him. But I had gained new friendships with his current friends, new bonds with his mom, met new people, made new friends, bonded back with my family & now closer than before, found back friendships and even rebuild some. People whom I had neglected for th past 10mths, I had them back. Some did left. But the true ones stayed on. Despite all these neglections to them, through my 3mths of emotional battle, they were their 24/7. Anytime when I needed a shoulder, a listening ear and somewhere to hide, they were there to embrace me and just allow me to do whatever would made me feel better. I will never forget how hard I cried outside and right in front of them. At the same time, I found another self of "me". It was something I nv knew existed within me. The "stronger" me. I rmb clearly how I drove to a quiet street during midnight, locked the car & just cried non-stop. I was lost and didnt know where I could go. The only thing I knew was that I wanted to be alone. I cried so hard till I was outta breathe. Aft 3hrs, I calmed down, started to be more clear-minded and rethink of my next step in life. I felt tired and went back home t bed. After this break-up, I had a hard time moving on initially. I took 2months to find back my routes for myself; as to where I would wanna go and be doing. And through the 2months, my perspective changed. I realize i became better and more mature along the way. I learnt new things and perspectives of life. And the constant love from the family, friends and everyone else was enough to keep me going even though it still hurts. I do cry to sleep certain nights, waking up to check my phone still, looking at photos and fb. I didnt sleep well, eat well nor live well. But I kept going though the grief still lives inside. But I guess it was also all these things that pushes me going and subsequently, the pain ease off quite alot. I didnt look bck as much nor think as much.

It was also then I found my route in life. I know clearly that I had wanted a change in myself and to be better person. I decided to start off with being a better family member to everyone in the family, then a better friend and subsequently myself. I found a new love; baking. And it was a talent. I did well in it. I merely started off with a cinnamon roll class at a home baker's class. From then, I learnt much more and started to bake even more. Friends & non-friends enjoyed them and I always feel good to see them eating my cookies or bakes so happily. Just brings a smile across my face. Definitely a sense of achievement as well!

Moving on with life, as I felt that the wound was getting better, I spent more time on family and friends. Those were the people who brings me joy in life and I thank each and every of them being there with me. Nonetheless, from my own experience, I started to help and advise my friends who met with their down times in life. It feels great upon helping. And I learnt to be a better friend. Give more, expect less

































I also started to sleep better, eat better & spend my time wiser as each other passes by. The happy thing was gaining back the weight; sign of happiness. And looking healthier & toner now. I dont look as sick and skinny as before. I like how I am now. Skinny but looking toned and healthy and also more radiant now. Im also feeling much more happier.

Maybe the best thing in Jan'13 was I know clearly I had moved on and no longer even looking back. They always say time will tell & heal all wounds. I strongly reciprocate with this saying. Through time, I see things in a clearer light & different perspective which made me stronger emotionally as well. And I've also greatly learnt to accept things the way it is. Resistance will only hinder u further & makes u more miserable. The same goes for hate.It really is true that if you hate, you'll live in misery. & if you learnt to let go & walk on, life is much more happier than before.

Sometimes I feel thankful for being able to go through this tough period of my life. It taught me alot and make me gained alot more too.

 :)