"Life is filled with choices we made"

The recent turmoil at work has made me change my perspective of self & towards work.

I reckon the lack of experience and having this as my first job ever since I graduated is indeed one filled with lots of challenges and uncertainty. I never knew how harsh this would come across to me. But I am thankful certain things happened to make me realize them and I hope it is never too late. It def gave me a good few days of emotions swirling badly inside. I couldn't perk myself up much and I just left it there to not attract more negative thoughts towards the rest of the things in life. And I began to do some self-thoughts on what I'd like to achieve next. 

I realize how much a step I was now. I didn't achieve too much in this 9mths yet. I am still learning everyday at work. However, I've failed at some point of time to handle certain duties. I blamed myself for my ignorance and lack of consistency in things I do hence the consequences. However, I decided to see it as yet another learning point for myself. I wanna do better next - was all I had in my mind. But how to? First, I'd hv to make the choice to change. I decided that no matter how major or minor this issue has impacted and the consequences I am facing, I will accept all that had happened and move on. Getting myself more than ready for work every day and handling everything on hand even better. I rmb my boss told me this "sometimes you don't need to be super fast in your work". And this makes me realize how much I need to start being more patient and practise consistency in my work. It came as a fresh start to embracing this as part of my work now.

After all th self-thoughts, I too decided that it was time to move on. I didn't meant to leave the current due to this issue but I reckon my very young age shld allow me to go out and try more job roles before deciding to settle down on one permanently. It wasn't being small-minded. But I felt the need to get outta comfort zone in order for myself to learn. In 2014, I wanna achieve much more than I did in 2013. Stepping out to diff jobs will enable me to find the one that I will settle down gradually. So im glad, I had a "lesson" learnt. Though it was grieving to me but somehow it will get better. 

For now, I'd work extra hard and use the time to improve and be better going ahead.

Love,

Rachh