Current life: Working hard chasing dreams

Flea th other day at Scape Level 4 w famfam!

Been busy recently due to the new launch of the blogshop: TheStellato finally after what seems ages. Anyways there's alot of hard work to the launch of it. Can't really say that we have make a mark alr but I hope we're able to tie through the intro & growth stage of the business soon! 

As I am still unemployed or rather jobless at the moment, I spend majority of time home & working on TheStellato. Also for the fact that the bf is in San Francisco nw and that leaves me alot of free time on my own. Well, sometimes I just cant help to feel emotional about it because I miss him so much!! But then I know he has been really great to maintaining contact w me. Calling me every single day when he can, keeping in touch through whats app & skyping w me when he has the time to! It is really nv easy to maintain a long distance r/s. But its all the efforts that both are willing to put in no matter how far the distance sets them apart! :) And also I cherish every single chance I can get to talk to him even much more! Not that I dont when he is ard in Sg but u knw he's somewhere so far and all that your can do is to call & the time is def something priceless.

I am rather happy w myself as of till now. I've been making different marks in life every single day. Working out is something I will not give up on until I make the mark. Then focusing on my business to get it on track. Getting my resumes sent out to potential jobs I see online as well. I hope when th bf returns, he can see a much more mature me :) Looking forward to 8thJuly!! I knw he is also counting there in SF too!

So staying home means saving much more $$ as well. Other than the heartland mall that I go to quite often t get tibits, yoghurt, food or what not, I stay home most days now. I still meet my friends on a weekly basis. And spend time w famfam for that fact that I neglected them fo quite a few mths tho. And also popping by to the bf's place to visit his fam whenever I've the time. They're really nice people I've met & am thankful for that! His parents are nice people and very understanding too. I can say that my r/s with them is def smth close as well :)

Setting more new goals for next week! I hope at least my bs business will start to be on track soon!:)

Till then!

xoxo, rachh

The Past Week

The past week flew past in an blink of an eye. They say happy times pass really fast & I've to agree with this totally! Been meeting Alvin fo th whole of last week everyday. & the boy put in so so so much effort to spend time with me every single day of the week. From planning the day to picking me up to sending me home safely to bringing me to whereever I wanted to go & doing everything I wanted to do with him. I've nv felt this happier before. It was def the best time of my life! <3

Collected his visa from the Embassy on Friday before heading down to Pepperoni Pizzaria to meet his poly clique fo farewell dinner fo him. 

 Knowing how much I had wanted to go KTV again with him, he brought me to Kbox on Monday! :) We really sang our hearts out though it was freezing!! 

We did something different for the first time together; PRAWNING!! It was my virgin exp w bi & it turned out fun! We caught 3prawns in all in 3hrs. Though it seems really little BUT its always the quality that counts! The time we spent tgt was def smth that couldnt be replaced :)

Mother's Day this year was brunch at Paradise Inn @ Junction10 w the famfam on Sunday. Afterwhich, we did some grocery shopping & headed home. I packed my stuffs up and touched up the remaining last min things fo his present before meeting him up. In th evening was Mother's Day bbq at his place w his family. We had fun playing mj, bbq & chilling ard w th family. Then we sent him off tgt at the airport at night ;(

One of the best surprises came when ...

I saw this ....

 I always tell Alvin that I wanted a teddy bear frm Build-a-Bear workshop so so so much! Mainly also due to the fact that he was gg to be gone to US fo an exchange fo 6weeks and I thought I could hug onto the bear whenever I miss him. However, due to the fact that, on the very last week bef he left, we didnt hv much time to go & get th bear and I totally did not really care much as I felt that time was the most precious to us at the moment. I thought that there wasnt gonna b anymore teddy bear from him. HOWEVER, on the day before we went to his place for BBQ, he picked me up & we saw this when we went t th car. I WAS EFFING TOUCHED!! I nv thought this would come across to me that Alvin actually made all the effort to go down and get me a bear! I thought he had since forgotten it too. It was th moment that I felt that Alvin had changed so much and to a man that I knw I loved him and he def loves me as much! :') Touched I was, I didnt wanna cry in front of him cause I knw it was the last few hrs t spend tgt happily bef he flies off. I just wanted to let it be filled with happiness and laughter to keep them close to the heart <3 & he was REALLY sweet; 10thMay2012 is our 8th mth anni & that was th DOB of th bear! AWWWWW :')

Couldnt resist taking more photos w Alvin the bear(thats the bear name) & I sent it to Alvin jus now in the day. He said im a pretty girl! :D MELTS!!

This was the very moment that i gave him the very last hug & photo tgt. I was crying in my heart so badly but I didnt on the outside simply because I didnt want him to worry.

To the amazing man of my life; Alvin Tan,

Thanks for ALL the love, care & joy you've brought into my life for th past 8mths plus. I nv thought that it'd all be that awesome. Honestly speaking, the early months of our r/s was def smth that maybe wasnt experience by many other couples out there. We fought, quarrelled & cried like mad. Sometimes, it could be a daily thing. At some point of time, we both got so so so tired of quarrelling every single day & was on a cold war mode. I believe we had wanted to give up at one point of time but we didnt. Im very glad we fought on tgt & managed to walk tgt till now. It might hadnt been easy but I can be very sure now that all that was put in was all worth the fight. I nv regret a single bit being tgt with u 8mths ago. From confessing to you that I've fell for u till waiting for u till getting igonred by you till the day you asked me officially t be your gf & till now, I TRULY AM GLAD THAT U"RE MY MAN! :)) Thank you bibi (thats how i always call u & will always do) for all that u've done fo me. Im waiting for u here in Sg to hug u again in my arms 6weeks later <3

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Definitely, th start of this 6weeks without Alvin has jus begun. Im fighting hard here in Sg t the day where I can see him again & hug him so tight. I told myself the best thing I could do now for him is to be independent , mature & not let him worry a single bit abt me. Though th feeling of missing someone is hard t fight away but I knw I can keep them inside my heart. When I miss him terribly, I hug th bear he gave, look at the photos we took & think of the wonderful days we spent tgt. & whenI do, I knw he's gonna b back really soon. 

I told myself that everyday I'll learn smth new & so that when the day he returns I know I've become someone better :) I'll try to write a diary soon & hopes to give it as a gift when he returns. I know I will & i can do it for these 6 weeks:)

These days has been really awesome hanging out w Alvin for almost every single day. I'm really happy & touched that he puts in so much efforts to spend time with me knowing that he's gonna be away in US for 6 whopping weeks. & when I say those efforts, it really meant ALOT based on the fact that he used t be someone who wouldnt do much of these when we first got tgt. & this r/s 8mths and gg, had brought so much changes in both of us. Some of these changes are good while there're bound to be the bad ones. But nevertheless, we would always try to work things out when they hit the rough patch. & I hv to say the first few mths of our r/s wasnt as good as it seemed to be. We had ALOT of rough patches along the way. Maybe it was due t the fact that we both hv very different personality and thinking and that leads to major quarrels each time. And when that happens, neither of us gives in. So the fight can get really bad sometimes. Moving on along, we def felt the need t make this whole r/s better for th future. We both gave in and compromise each other's weaknesses, made changes for good and always work things out when they go wrong. I dont deny we still have quarrels at times but def things are so so so much better now as compared to the past. We walked thru alot more than any other couple would hv. But I'm sure all these are worth for the longer journey that awaits for us. As for th 6weeks w/o him physically beside me, Im prepared fo it. Not 100% well-prepared but im rdy t face the challenge. Im sure aft this, i'd be someone mentally & emotionally stronger & our r/s will b even stronger than before. It's hard to face them but I knw fearing t face it would b worse. Instead, countdown to the day I'd see u again :)

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Anyways, the holidays has started for me. Im currently looking fo a job as well as managing everything of the bs. Hopefully everything will go very well fo it! I'm having rather high hopes on it :) I've a few things in mind t achieve this holi ;

- Sign up fo baking classes
- Workout more in gym (need to hit 43kg)
- GET A JOB
- Become fairer w me being hardworking t apply whitening lotion daily
- BS to be a success
- Able t manage everything

Quite a few things to work hard for and Im sure if I achieve them, i'd feel rather accomplished. So, I am ALL rdy t undertake them on a brand new Monday next week! :D Hv a great weekends folk!