Happy Sunday y'all!
Bought some durian puffs home the other day as there was a promotion going on for GWP's durian puffs. Glad the family is loving it! GWP nv fails, just check out the THICK FAT JUICY goodness of the puffs.
Back track to work a little, the colleague has been my best lunch kaki, gossiper goer, nonsensical friend, fitness pal and everything else and we are having fun camwhoring our hysterical faces in the office!
Thankful for the given opportunity at the sister's wedding to display my Candy Bar and was given another opport this time round for the cousin's little son 3rd birthday!
Been some time since the uni-gang met up, this time round was for Ish's birthday! We decided to head for Ice Skating at Jcube and it was kinda like a virgin exp for all of us!
7/7 uni-gang, full prescence last night!
The girls <3
Anyway just yesterday I had a thought to share while I was resting when i got home before heading for my midnight run.
I've nv regretted at any point till day for the amount of effort I had put in for myself to try to salvage a broke r/s last year. In fact, it wasn't for him at all but for myself. Cause I am a strong believer that when I do something, I only make the best outta it. I gave my 101% right till the last bit even when things were already so bad that it can't be compromised any further. I am thankful i gave the best till the last fight cause you only live once, so just do it.
All along i was also the one who didn't speak any bad of whatever that had happened simply because I do not see any point of doing so. It do not benefit me in any ways. Hence when I got questioned on how and why did things go so wrong and ended, I chose to be quiet and do away with "Things just no longer work out between us". I felt this was a very true and appropiate answer as it really is true that he gave up the fight to work things out once again. Harsh truth of life but very true. I felt that whatever that had happened should be left behind and close the chapt off instead of whining and whining of the same story to every other people. I chose to believe in the good of people and things even when it isn't something good that had happened. Likewise,I chose to believe the good in you and all that happened. BUT you proved me so wrong ,2months right after we broke off, you proved me to me how true your colors were. I told myself never to hate cause hating doesn't solve anything jus like crying over spilled milk. I decided to embrace the fact to live better for myself. Indeed, i felt more positive and really led a happier life than before. I no longer need to worry for another person's whereabouts, doings and their life. I was in better control of my life and started to realize what I want to achieve for myself, my goals and dreams; Rachbake, family, friends, myself and my work. Basically all these filled up 101% of my life that aft falling for a good 3mths, I climbed outta huge hole.
All these time, I reckon that life jus started to get better along the way; I found a job within 2mths of grad w a pay that was within my expectations, my family & I bonded even closer than before, my body started to get better with each trg I put myself through, my life was filled with laughter and happiness from friends ard me, i received alot more blessings daily, rachbake's compliments were there and I simply just started to feel better myself. I guess thats the good you received after you've been through the worst.
It slowly build me up to believing in certain things; you don't need to speak sometimes and you're already the real champion cause whatever one does, everyone ard you watches. People will only judge you in whatever you've done so you can't exactly go around saying "people judge you accordingly. instead reflect on what your actions were to lead them into thinking such of u" I reckon people around me saw what the truth was and I didn't had to speak to impress/clarify. Instead I received much more than I expected. New friendships forged, wishes from the mother now and then, new friends met, new life found and new self rebuild. Thankful to the worst that had happened to me to allow myself to be able to be so strong now.
So to anyone who is going through anything unpleasant at the moment or trying to work your way to your dreams, don't give up now even if the route to success is tough. Cause when you eventually become a champion in ur heart, u know all these are worth the fight. Fill those hardships with a drop of faith everyday and it will grow to something big
Love,
Rachh
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